a venting moment

my older sister norma is so unhelpful sometimes. i like to go on walks late at night. i used to do it a lot when i was in berkeley and i still love doing it now. i find it soothing, cause the night breeze is all nice and cool and there’s not too many people around so i can pretend im in a music video while im walking and there’s no one around to judge me. yes i know it’s dangerous for a womyn to be out by herself late at night. whatever. and i know my mom would flip if she knew i went for walks at 12am. so i have to “sneak out.” i used quotes cause i consider sneaking out to be what you do when you’re 16 and going to a party or something. im 21. it’s my hot body and i’ll do what i want. but leave it to norma to call me out and shit. she tells my tia tonight that she heard me come in last night. was that you i heard?! she asks. yes it was me. “That is really suspicious!” she says as my tia laughs. 

what i wanted to say: SHUT THE FUCK YOU STUPID IDIOT. YOU’RE SO UNHELPFUL! YOU ALWAYS DO THIS! YOU’RE ALWAYS TRYING TO THROW ME UNDER THE BUS CAUSE MOM ALWAYS SAID YOU WERE THE BAD ONE SO NOW YOU WANT GET REVENGE ON ME AND MONI. YOU SUCK AS A SISTER.

what i actually said: i go on late night walks all the time, it’s not a big deal. 

-_- i need a job. 

p.s. if she tells my mom im screwed. :/ <3 my late night walks. don’t take them away from me!